baby mode

I am in such baby mode. In the last two months I have made a decision that I want to start a family (smbc) next year. But that's next year. It's only the end of May. I have a long way till then. To officially start. It's driving me crazy. I keep telling myself that I cannot do anything. I am not completely prepared as far as money and to get me out of baby mode. I tell myself do all of the fun things now that I won't be able to do when I am pregnant and after I have a baby.

I am super anxious but it's scary at the same time. I am totally confident in my decision but you can't help get all of the questions or wonders.

hmmmm this is a scattered blog just had to get my thought out. Probably will be more later.

xxoo