Sunday, February 27, 2011

in·dif·fer·ent 

good bye Illinois. Here I am Indianapolis. This weekend was the weekend I made the move into my boyfriend's. I didn't think that I would have these weird emotions. Or maybe I should say lack of emotions. It was a weird weekend to come. It's the weekend of his late wife's anniversary. So how do you feel? He keeps asking me if I am ok. I say yes but I know I am not. Not in a bad way or anything, kinda indifferent.

Since I made the decision to move I've never been happier. I needed the change in all aspects of my life. I am truly thankful to have found him. I have been anxious to make this move now I am just blah. I guess it didn't help that seeing everyone before I left was kind of sad. It was hard to see people crying and sad I was leaving especially since I was so happy.

If anyone is reading this blog. I know it doesn't make any sense. I am sorry. I am just kind of scattered.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

take me out to a ball game

So has anyone watch that episode of Sex in the City? If you haven't let me tell you. Charlotte starts dating this guy who is constantly adjusting himself and it drives her nuts literally. Well I am having the same problem. My man is constantly doing it and it's freaking distracting not to mention kinda embarrassing. I don't think he even knows he is doing it when I try to bring it up to him.

I think it's a combination of having how do I put this delicately there is no way he has rather large balls :) And also with shaving :D all contributes to him shifting. It drives me nuts. In the episode she buys her bf supportive underwear. He wears the boxer brief so you can't get no supportive than that.

So I don't know what to do.

Friday, February 11, 2011

remembering today.

Another reason I think I am in this short temper mood. Today is my mom's birthday. My mom past away a lil over 10 years ago at the short age of forty one. She would of been 52 today. I get to thinking what would she of looked like. What would of been her latest interest? What kind of clothes would she be wearing? How would she wearing her hair?

Happy birthday Mom!!!

You are missed so much. A day doesn't go by that I wish you were here.

I love you.

Love,
Kelly



Attitude adjustment

I am in desperate need of one. I have two more weeks left of work and really only a week and half because I am taking a few days off. But let me tell you I am so tempted to slap the shit out of some people.

I am getting a lot of pressure to have an after hour or happy hour with my department. How do you put it nicely that you don't want to spend my time after work with everyone I work with. I thought about having something after work but with a select group of people. For awhile I was feeling guilty and was going to give in and have something where I would invite all of my department. But today because my temper is so short and I am getting stupid shit from people I am saying fuck it. If I want to invite only five members of my department and leave the rest out I will damn well please.

As you can tell I am just aggitated and fed up with some of the people I work with. Especially a certain girl I work with. I swear she thinks her shit doesn't stink. I just want to put a mirror in her face and say "baby girl you are not cute" My director is giving her all this power and she thinks she is all high and mighty. Come to find out they are moving my position directly under her. I am so glad I am leaving.

Ok that's enough of my bitching. I need to breathe.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

The Reigning Trifle Queen

I have gotten known for my trifles that I make. The funny thing is I love cooking absolutely love it. But I hate baking and making desserts but turns out I am pretty good at it.

So anyways back to my trifles. I get requested at work to make them all of the time. It's funny other people in other departments will come up to me and tell me how good they are. What makes that funny is that the bowl I make them in has our department name. So what are they doing going into my bowl?! lol Nah I don't mind afterall "sharing is caring" A couple of ladies have asked me for the recipe and apparently theirs don't come out as good as mine.

So what makes me the queen. Well I started off making what I call the original recipe which is a white chocolate raspberry trifle and after that it got to the point that I would never make the same one twice. I was just always wanting to try out different things.

So anyways the month of February was my month to host our staff meeting and the host brings desserts. This is my last staff meeting I wanted to make something extra special for my department. so I got to thinking I knew I was going to make a trifle. But how was I going to incorporate everyones' favorite. So I stole the idea of using mason jars. I went out and bought 24 mason jars. I made four different kind of trifle. Three of them were the majority favorites and then I added a new one. I had to do a new one. So anyways here is the pictures of my hard work. It was a lot of prep work and it wasn't cheap. But the looks of everyones faces was worth it. I had this idea to label each jar with a picture of what kind ie: oreo, chocolate..etc then I included a cute dessert or chocolate quote on the labels. So we went around the room and everyone read their quote out loud. They got a kick out of it and ironically with out really choosing the quote people got quotes that suited them.

Drool over the pics :)

Prep







The End Results





From left to right

white chocolate raspberry, rolo carmel chocolate, triple chocolate and oreo cookie

Thursday, February 3, 2011

the move.

The move is fast approaching. I have so much to do and things to get done. I have like 3 weeks left. Within that time I am visiting babes for 5 days. So it doesn't give me a whole lot of time to get some time in with other friends. It's kind of getting overwhelming and spending the money to do things. I have people asking me to do this and that. And it seems like everyone I knows birthday is in February.

I really want to see everyone before I leave. But also, I don't want anyone to think that I never going to see them again. I am only going to be a 4 hour drive. It's a lot but not managable.

I am finally going to get my paperwork from HR. My director was holding up my PA (personal action) form. I think she was thinking that I was going to change my mind. She is a weird one.

I am really happy that I am leaving here.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

thoughts on dating

Things between J. (my bf) and I are doing pretty good. I think this relationship is a learning experience for both of us and I just can't ask for a better man to learn this with. Don't get me wrong he has his faults. But I know this is true love when I love him for his faults. I am so looking forward to this year with him. I wish I could put into words how I feel about him. I fall more and more in love with him every day. For once in my life there is no guessing, no questioning, no wondering. I know where he stands and how he feels about me. There are no games. It's so relieving. I kissed plenty of frogs to find this prince.

With talking to a friend about another friend (was a friend, more of acquaintance now). I have this friend well she is kind of frumpy and wants this good looking man but she doesn't want to put any effort into it. She doesn't do her hair, makeup or dresses for her body type. She is a plus size girl, she has a daughter but she has this huge list of what she wants. I don't believe in settling but seriously you need to uncheck some of your boxes when looking for someone. Also, she doesn't want to put herself out there. She expects a man to magically appear or for her friends to find her a man. No man is going to want her if she doesn't put any effort into they way she looks and she is super judgemental. She has turned religious. Isn't it funny how people turn religious and they forget who they were. Or forget do you remember I knew you when you were younger and were doing some of the stuff that you did. But I don't judge you. But you judge some of the stuff I do or others do. I don't get it.

What made me bring that up is she heard about J. and I, and she was not happy for me. She couldn't understand how come I found someone and she didn't or hasn't.

It's a lot of working dating. I was putting myself on dating websites and unchecked some boxes. By unchecking some of those boxes I discovered that I liked a certain kind of man that I didn't before. It's not easy. You have to deal with meeting duds, rejections, games guys play, drama and the time that takes to put into it. Hell I was taking a break from dating and poof here he was.

Anyways just some thoughts on dating and my lover :)